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Hey bro. Sorry to hear your ish got jacked. 206.388.6462. You’ll want that number in 7 years. I still got your momz number in my head… ha ha. Miss ya lots. Hope you’re good good.

my momz number?!!?

lol

i saved u

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You kinda did. ..

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Yeah I told you I was going to call her and tell her if you were being naughty.. ha ha.

oh yea i remmebr that !!

haha

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425.357.5525 right

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Dammit ha

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How’s life these days

its aiiiight

hows ur life

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It’s motionless…seemingly. what of your big dreams to entertain?.are you still working on that wave

slowly

motionless describes me right now

but not for long

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I feel my energy is on its way, but.I can’t quite grasp it yet

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I think about how much life you breathed into me, frequently. I haven’t forgotten.

really?

thanks

i search for that too

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It’s worth finding

yaea im kinda depressed becasue i havent been doing the one thing i feel i am supposed to do becasue im afradi

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I was just having that conversation with myself earlier. I was thinking I am probably supposed to be a writer but I can’t seem to make time to write. I.think.It’s.fear

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It’s a strange progression. When we are kids, we could do anything but something holds us back, like fear of embarrassment. Then it happens again as teens. Then as young adults. I always think, if I was young again, I would be brave… but then I’m presented with the opportunity again, and again…nothing.

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That was a mess of a message..

no i get it

i guess it takes patience

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Or persistence..

and most of all believig we are meant for more

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Or perseverance

believing

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We can’t be meant for nothing. I’m sure of that.

i cant be average

i know i was meant for more. i must not give up

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You never have been average.

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You are always more than you think you can possibly be.

we should get together soon

so much typing leaves out

im a crap typist

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Yes. We should. I’ve become a hermit of sorts.

yea me too

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Hey isn’t texting what 20 year olds do anymore? Haha.. I watched something about how stupid we are with technology..It’s lonely and not real.

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That’s what you gave me, reality!

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Why are you hermeting?

idk i have trouble with friends

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You said that when I met you. I didn’t fully understand how that could be possible because you are such a presence but I understand you now.

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I have trouble with friends too

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Or trouble with myself and friends maybe.

i often feel myself getting close to people and it feels weird

a presence?

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A breath of life… energy… (I sound like a hippy, I am not)

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It is weird to be close to people.

(yes u are)

haha jk

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(I laughed.. ha ha) (but I am not, I’m a farmer and a dork)

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3 weeks ago I had a weird dream…it took me a couple days to figure it out, partially…

dreams are bizarre

they seem to be god slapping us in the face

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It was of a faceless person who wanted a tattoo “I shall not want KISS”…

hmm like mine…

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In the dream I said, dude I.like it but not.kiss….that band is old…

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Person said, I.don’t care. I want it…

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Haha… It was your tattoo mixed with the.kiss concert at the.gorge or something…..but it was your writing just like your tattoo… I don’t know why that dream came to me

kiss is interesting because

ive been turned off by kissing kind of as of late

with andrea we didnt click on the sex but we would kiss for hours and i loved it

maybe not hours idk

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I know that feeling! In high school I loved kissing my bf more than anything. Something sobering happens when you get older, and it becomes less intense…maybe just me

and she would always call me friend and she was the best friend i ever had and now shes gone and idk

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Are you ready to tell me

what

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Everything

ask

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I don’t have any questions. I just know you haven’t ever told anyone everything

i just want to see her more than anything in the world and i dont know what to do

i dont know if shes married

i got a text from some random number saying she was married and moved to south america

but maybe that was her

her facebook once said she was married but i figured she was saying she was married to me

and yet other things tell me she still loves me

and i dont know maybe she is the devil and only plays with me

maybe she is killing me

maybe that is how i am meant to die

maybe i should let her go and not want her back

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She isn’t killing you. She is creating you.

but idk becasue i love her and i want to see her

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You can’t control your wants. Only your actions.

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Tell me how you would let someone go and not want them..I’ll can you a wizard

haha

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I’m glad you still love her. It makes me believe in something. I don’t know what, but something.

well also i think maybe love like that isnt meant to be held

like i said i dont believe anyone has ever loved the way i love her, greatest love in history of humans

she changed me and the way i see the world

i used to think i was a person

now i think im the only person

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And if you are

then i just guess i am meant to be happy

and make others happy

and thats yin yang

i dont know what creates which

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Oh my.universe! Story time with Ali!

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Ok, so I got this energy from you when we were in the same frequency…

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I just felt different, and was just life! That’s when I.bible dipped BELIEVE for our tattoo. (Not plural on purpose)

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I was on a high frequency.

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Then, I dropped off….as I knew I.would (per ebb and flow)

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*ps this g.damn phone puts periods wherever it wants

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Well, the day after I.dreamt that peculiar dream of your tattoo…….

that dream was that long ago?

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3 weeks ago…

oh ok continue

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Thank you. =p

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I bible.dipped again in my “bible”…feeling the same as that day, same mind some emotion…I just let it go…and it was the SAME WORD….SAME PAGE..

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I checked if it was weighted from opening..no

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I questioned even my own beliefs….

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I sat on my couch with my mouth open for MINUTES….

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I couldn’t tell anyone

seeing that word again made u question ur beliefes?

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Closing my eyes and letting my hand find that one word on that one page of hundreds made me ironically sit in disbelief

oh word….damn

yea i have been questioning alot lately

but thats why i try and let it go…

be slient

feel

trust

love is the universe

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Love IS the universe!

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Love creates… That’s you

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Create love…That’s me

…..?

lol

but ive learned rescelty the value of laughter

Maybe I will see you again and I won’t even recognize you. Maybe I will see you again and it will be like I saw you in that bar…astonished at how in love I am with you.

I think about you everyday. Sometimes most of the day. I’m having a hard time remembering you. I used to be able to picture you. I can’t so well anymore. Maybe that is what love is; fading away. In my heart I guess I will always love you, and though I may never see you again, I don’t know if anyone will ever be so special to me as you once were.

I hope one day I will have somebody I love to hold. I can’t imagine it being anyone else but you. I don’t know for sure if u are married or not but I suspect you are. It makes me sad that you don’t want to be with me but I understand. I will love you forever and whether or not you live me is I guess not important. I am my own person and that’s the way life is, one. Something so perfect can’t exist, I guess. And in my head I had some crazy fantasy of what you would be to me.

Maybe I will see you again and maybe I won’t. I hope I see you tonight, in my dreams. I hope we go on a walk and chat, and hold each other and make love. I don’t even know what I want anymore, I only know that I miss you.

how are you doing?

do you miss me?

i think about you everyday. i ant seem to get over you. i dont know whether to let it go or to hold on. it seems that you may not love me anymore, that you might be married. inside i know that you would never get married to anyone but me, that you were always my girl and will always be. i dont know anything anymore.

i always knew that you loved me but i dont really know anymore. I used to see you and feel all those feelings of us and i would know in my heart that we were in love. now i am forgetting what that is like. i forget what it is like to see you and its killing me inside. 

i only want to see you. i would travel any distance to see you. All i want is to see you again. I have no idea where  you are. its killing me inside.